again, nothing happens so this is mostly a "opportunity, wait, nothing" blog.

The next opportunity:
Last week, great party, meet friend from abroad, but apart from standing close & chatting, nothing.
She will return next week, I so have to work on that. I know she's interested, she knows (?) I am. I have to make it work.

so what happened up to now? almost nothing, but i'm very confident that something will and thus the subject "chipper". There is a chance of makeout+ with a girl but she's gone for about two months and i'll have to work to make it happen. in the meantime other opportunities have to be looked out for and taken.

Happy new year!

Two years on and not a lot of things have changed, though there hasn't been any success things are on the up. I'm not that frustrated any more, I just don't care that much. I do notice more attention, and while I'm not acting on it as I should, it boosts self-confidence.
I got a LJBF (again) with a really nice woman, but on the upside she really *wants* to be friends. The last days were awesome, except for being sick. Went out, met old friends, great parties, great music, nice women to ogle.

The new year, what will it bring? Parties, fun, and pickups I hope. And more "Field Reports", unless I forget about this blog again.

Long time no update, lost interest and password.

One of my heroes at the sosuave board is freefalling, his thread "Help! I'm turning into the 40 year old virgin" makes a very good. Not because he gives good advice or shows some tricks, but he tells his story going from an 29 year old AFC who "overcame" his oneitis and is now banging a 18 year old he met on vacation. I think turns out so good that it could be fake, but that's not important, because his story gives me courage for my own quest to get rid of this "virgin" thing. Like him I tend to overanalyze things, and hardly dare to make a move even if the signal is green, for me it has to be fkin shining bright green.

Anyways I'm still a pussy, but one with intention to change. I go out more, I'm getting better at reading signals from women, I recon & understand PUA behavior and I'm pushing myself more. But I don't push myself enough, i had a perfectly good chance talking to a woman today, opener was obvious, rejection not a loss and plenty of time, but I flunked.

regarding the movie in the title, good but I think Wating... is better, there is noone who goes from AFC to PUA and back.

Now for plans. There is one girl which I'm usually seeing once or twice a week but never talked to her, tomorrow I hope to see and chat her up, rejection ahoy (though not that likely unless she has got a bf), but better than nothing.

Went to a club tonight, got there too early as the dance-floor was empty except for two girls dancing. I was there with a group of friends and A was there, not that there is anything new about, her but i just don't understand. Except for saying something to me once she was totally passive, no dancing etc.

There was one girl alone, waiting for someone. I think she eyed me but I didn't make a move, and don't really regret it as i was having a good time and that is what the night was about. When the dance floor got fuller i overcame my fear of feeling stupid when making weird moves. It's not that i don't like dancing, when the floor was empty i was eager to dance and hoped the floor would fill up quickly, but I have this stupid idea that when I dance i might look stupid and somebody will make fun of me. Thats how I feel about it, yet I know it ain't so.

Is when I do something. Yesterday i saw a hot petite woman whom I would rate about 8. Standing around for a while and becoming more and more anxious I pushed myself and asked her. As she was on the verge of leaving we just exchanged names, some words and i said that i would like to do something with her and if she could give me her number. Sadly she doesn't do such a thing but maybe we could meet at a another event the same day. I was so fking nervous afterwards that I had go out for a while and cool down. She was always busy working at the other event and I didn't want to wait forever so as the event wasn't that interesting, so I cut it short and told her goodbye.

When talking to her the first time i told her that she seems to be pretty young and guessed her at about 18, turns out she's 25, older than me.

What helped cooling down was telling myself "Whatever I'll do, I'm screwed either way" i.e. not to care too much.

I conclusion i would say i didn't really have a chance but i tried and the result was ok.

nothing new really other than i'm glad i don't have oneitis.

So instead of her turning me down, which I would have expected, it went a another way.
I had told her I would call and decided to call her after lunch. So I have lunch, go back to work and after one hour I remember that I wanted to make a call. So I get out, trying to think of something funny to say, call her on her mobile and her mother picks up. Uh. She tells they switched their phones but she can't give me her number now, so I try landline. "The number you called has not been assigned".
I call a friend who gives me the number of a another friend who can finally give me her new number, called, called, called but only her voice-mail would pick up. I don't think she avoided me (caller id was off) but she will have something to explain.

Wanted: Your Most AFC Move many posts in that thread make want to kill myself, all those missed chances.
However it's also a positive outlook: loads of chances, so next time, I'll have to grab my chances by the ass.

Here is a thread about it in the sosuave forums: ONEITIS - Lets Be Honest.

The description of this "sickness" is pretty accurate but imo his advice is too drastic esp. when looking for a long term relationship. But keep an eye on your emotions, infatuation is a lot of trouble.

Except for "oneitis in LTR" i've had it all, especially as I am very shy "oneitis with a girl you dont know". When I was a teenager I thought infatuation was cool, that certain feeling when you see her or even just think of her. I was totally admiring the girls. But now it's not cool anymore, it sucks, it hurts. It takes away control over my life, I can't really concentrate on work. When I see her almost everything is doomed to fail as I'm to nervous and put a lot of pressure on myself cause she's such beauty and I'm just a average sucker and to impress her I may not fail at all, o she is the gem of all gems. That sucks and knowing that it sucks makes me hate it, I absolutely hate infatuation for it makes nervous next her and stammer when I open my mouth. It's one of the feelings I regard as useless as it doesn't help or protect me like eg. fear, but actually makes it worse.

I'm currently trying to date a girl A. I asked her today to go to the movies with me on wednesday, she said she doesn't know yet (no good sign). When she doesn't have time I better next (drop pursuing her and move on) her.
She only caught my attention recently, if I'm not totally wrong another friend is trying to make a move on her as well but he has had no luck so far. I would rate her a HB6 who's uh, "well equipped". That she's "only a six" is an advantage because that makes me less worried about fucking up because there is "better" to pursue.

I think my chances with her are not very good, because i'm not that much of a talker and C&F is an inverse strength of mine. However I think there is a chance because when I sit next to her, there is, imho, too much "accidental" touching. Could be wrong about that though.

The nice thing is that I'm not to worried about her and started doing something before, what usually happens, I develop oneitis for her.

Some years ago, when i was in the army, i stumbled upon Heartless Bitches specifically their Nice Guys section. Back then I was a Nice Guy at it's best, constantly lamenting that the jerks are always getting the hot girls, that those women deserved better, they deserved me, I would do anything for them, respect them listen to them, do the laundry, ask them for their opinion. That coupled with depression and anger because I haven't got layed, never been kissed, and shyness is one of the worst situations you can be in. But then I read the Nice Guy articles and found myself in them. It was an eye opener it made me realize that I was on the totally wrong track. Worshiping her like a goddess won't do me (and her) any good. I was what I don't like in women either: cheap.

While I realized my errand ways, it took me quite a while to grasp that I need to change and socialize more.

Update:
Here is a good comic strip for the Nice Guy

This is my alter ego blog, where i can write without worrying about anybody knowing me. Mainly it's about me trying to leave the realms of an AFC (average frustrated chump) and becoming more of a DJ. I will collect information, links and track my progress.